"We have decided to pursue other applicants for this job opportunity." This is the most saddening message I have seen more than few times every few days since the past month. It's been 24 days since I resume my job search journey after the dramatic and adventurous post-graduation whirlwind settled.
The process is kind of hard and depressing with several gut punching rejection that lands every few days, each one a reminder of how tough this process can be. Nearly a year out of university, the rejections pile up, and it’s hard not to wonder that both opportunities are slipping away and I’m simply not good enough. What even worse, is how this mindset is slowly sapping my motivation, leading me to procrastinate more.
It would be easier to cope with it shrugging it off, point fingers to others people/factors. But I really don't want to become a person like that who look for people to blame when things are not working out. That's why I decided to write this post to remind myself my principle and philosophy of life. If anything, I would rather bear all the blame myself.
At this point, I will just consider any offer that comes my way. I don’t feel like I’m in a position to negotiate or be picky about what’s best, this is also better for my mental health. I will make sure to do something that I don't hate at least. I'll probably die early or retire early to do something else anyway.
If you are reading this, wish me luck my friend. Cast me a virtual hug. Wish I am a girl sometimes, at least "Huge Girl Fail" sounds cuter.